Sunday, July 7, 2013
Welcome to my journey.
Turning 50 is a time of reflection, transition, or trepidation. We reflect back on the good we have done because we found our purpose in life early and used it to better the world around us. Or we may find ourselves in a place of transition. We feel we did some good but want to do more or we feel we did not use our gifts to their fullest and there is still more that we can accomplish. Trepidation rests on those of us who find ourselves still asking what is our purpose with a sense of panic that time may run out before we find it.
I am on the other side of 50. How I got here already seems unfathomable but I am here. I haven’t “wasted” my life but I don’t feel I have done as much with it as I could have. And that big question remains unanswered; what is my purpose? It is not as uncommon as one would think to get this far in life and still not know. Many people pass on before finding what it is that they are supposed to do when they grow up. I don’t want this to happen to me so I have vowed to discover it.
A near fatal car accident began this journey. A drunk driver barreled through the intersection hitting our car. That nightmare changed me in ways I still don’t understand. The changes started out small. I began seeking things like tee shirts and coffee mugs with positive words on them such as gratitude, happiness, and inspire. I then began finding books that led me on a spiritual and creative quest, where I still am to this day.
It was stumbling upon Somerset Studio publications that ignited my creative explorations. Before reading their magazines I had never heard of art journaling, mixed media art, or blogs. My right brain was curious; my left brain told me I couldn’t do “that”. It took a while, 5 years actually to quiet the left side and listen to renderings of the right. Last month I put my toes in the water and signed up for Kelly Kilmer’s Journey Within online course. I was giddy with excitement yet scared (that left-brain voice kept telling me I couldn’t do it).
The poem The Journey seems like a fitting credo for this blog. I am now at a point in my life where I have slowed down enough to recognize my own voice. Now, on the other side of 50, I want to release that voice creatively through photography, art journaling, and mixed media art. Welcome to my journey!